Struggling

I am feeling better now that I know the date for the surgery is set. I know that the doctors like to call it a procedure but I still think its surgery. Its my fucking heart they will be playing with. But I am struggling with another problem. My family has gone through such rough years lately since my father's passing. It has just been very rough. Job loss and money problems. And now with this surgery and the three ER visits it is just piling up more and more. I am feeling so super stressed. I am just going crazy. I am praying daily that something will work out but right now nothing. I have applied for disability but so far no word. I just hate it..... -Johnny V.