Desert Sun

She is the single oasis in my dry existence.

Her eyes like the desert sun give, and use life within the same instant.

Each footprint in the burning sand takes my a moment closer to her.

I spy her innocent flesh sparkle on the horizon.

In a single breath I reveal my love and curse the sun.

I draw closer to her rose colored scent, overpowered by my sense of life.

At last I can reach for her perfection.

As I open the rusting door of my heart, she turns her back to me.

The tears come as quickly as the spring storm.

I turn but cannot depart.

Caged forever between freedom, and unwanted desire.

-Johnny V.

Cold, Cold Sea

She stands upon the frigid Dover cliffs.
Pulls closer to her breasts her favorite wool coat.
She looks out on the Atlantic the icy mist mixes with her sadness.

He steers his ship into the dark night.
The moonlight his only guide.
The sea called him when he was but a child.
Her blue eyes like a temptress has lead him to this fate.

For the sea must not be denied her due.
The waves crash across the bough, he understands his grip has ended.
As the freezing rain spots her love worn face, she feels the salty tears of loss.

-Johnny V.

My Prison

Her soul feeds and drains my strength.

She is the addiction I must possess.

Longing to caress her tender spirit.

I sacrifice my battle worn heart, just to be near.

Yet she will never belong to me.

I yearn to feel her soft lips, and taste her sweet breath.

Her gentle body calls me to my doom.

I go without regret.

For life within her denial surpasses one devoid of her voice.

-Johnny V.

Fire

Her fire is brutal and all consuming.

I am drawn to its intensity.

My flesh is beyond repair yet I cannot walk away.

The pleasure gives way to a pain past understanding.

I beg her to burn me deeper and take my remaining breath.

But as the comfort of death seems within sight she cools my pain.

I walk back to her embrace for its addiction is now my soul's only desire.

-Johnny V.

My diet.

I am starting a carb diet on Sunday. After the surgery I lost 40lbs. But it has leveled off. So I need to do something. I like the way I felt and looked. I really think I can do it. With the heart better I will be able to do more. Before if I tried even a little exercise I would get dizzy and out of breath. I want to be below or at 200 by May. It averages out to about 13-15 pounds a month. Wish me luck.

-Johnny V.